Courtesies

"Thanks very much
and
apologies
for the inconvenience
Regards,
Hamish"

An email full of courtesies.
substantially devoid of content
other than my name
do you call it a signature if typed?
Is self content?

I read it back over before sending.
proof reading
an email
saying thanks

(I mean,  come on!)

I wonder
how my life came to this

courteous, vacuous,
bland,  attentive
mediocrity.

I was going to change the world.

(and then,  reflection)

"I love you with every boner in my body
Hamish"

With all of the wit
and sophisticated understatement
that you might expect from
an idiot child
seventeen year old virgin 
with undiagnosed ADHD,
I used to sign off uni emails with that.

All of them.

All.

Quite how *that* was
going  to change the world
eludes me now,  but I think
it was something
to do with challenging norms.

... Yeah... 'bout that...

Probably more just being a bit awful,
Seventeen year old Hamish.

The world was going to change me on that one.

Probably for the best that it did.